This post is for January 30th, 2011
MEMORY -
Everything I ever did was perfect in my Uncle's eyes. My dancing, my smile, my voice .... my whole being was perfect to him.
APPLICATION -
Watched the movie "Black Swan" this evening. WOW!! Didn't realize a perfectionist could go off the deep end, but it completely makes sense. Having studied with the Royal Academy Ballet school, I was taught perfection at a very young age. We would be given exams yearly, only graduating the best of the best. I would do my best to execute perfection. Then during my ROTC years in High School, I found myself on an armed drill team. We were CONSTANTLY reminded by our Captain "Practice doesn't make PERFECT, PERFECT practice makes PERFECT". As crazy as those words sounded, they unfortunately found their way into my thoughts quite often. This habit of thought throughout the years created a "false self" of whom I was as an artist and performer. Over the years, I have come to the realization that perfection is an illusory thing and when reaching for it, dysfunction eventually finds it's way in, like a cold draft in the middle of the night. It comes in without an invite and doesn't leave until you do something about it.
REFLECTION -
Perfection is a funny thing. We spend our lives seeking it, knowingly or not. Whether it's our bodies, our relationships or our faith ...... society seems to be on an endless search for the unrealistic ..... Perfection. I've come to learn, it's the things that don't take practice (like being Uncle Peter's niece) that end up being the most perfect.
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