February 21st - March 28th, 2011
My attempt to catch up on the days that have passed hasn't worked out as planned. Falling more than a month behind has kept me writing about the past, trying my hardest to catch up on each day, loosing focus on the present. The therapy behind this blog was at it's peak when I was writing daily.
Today, I reflected upon the last month in silence. I thought to myself " Did I really go this long without taking a little time each day to honor Pete?". I felt horrible. Sitting in disappointment, I continued to look back on the past weeks. Then out of no where I felt a feeling of ease wash over me, I thought " I had been honoring my Uncle all month long!" I had shared his stories, I kept him in my thoughts daily, I even bought certain foods he liked. I still honored him day to day, just never took the time to reflect upon it. Maybe I didn't have to. Maybe this past month was a sign of healing????
As disappointed as I was about my fall back, I am at peace to know it's all apart of healing.
I'll continue this blog until I reach the two year mark of his passing. I look forward to the days of enlightenment ahead and to the moments spent with Pete in prayer. It's good to be back, this time a stronger person than I was before.
Today, I reflected upon the last month in silence. I thought to myself " Did I really go this long without taking a little time each day to honor Pete?". I felt horrible. Sitting in disappointment, I continued to look back on the past weeks. Then out of no where I felt a feeling of ease wash over me, I thought " I had been honoring my Uncle all month long!" I had shared his stories, I kept him in my thoughts daily, I even bought certain foods he liked. I still honored him day to day, just never took the time to reflect upon it. Maybe I didn't have to. Maybe this past month was a sign of healing????
As disappointed as I was about my fall back, I am at peace to know it's all apart of healing.
I'll continue this blog until I reach the two year mark of his passing. I look forward to the days of enlightenment ahead and to the moments spent with Pete in prayer. It's good to be back, this time a stronger person than I was before.
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